This is about a happy and scary time in my life.
Ladies Retreat & Biopsy Surgery: October 27-29,2006
This is was my first time at Big Sandy Camp. I love the setting on the Lake. There were geese flying over – head. I personally saw a Blue Heron by the Lake’s edge. Beautiful scenery. I also took pictures of some of the scenery and the newer buildings at Big Sandy Camp. The sunsets and sunrises over the lake is simply breath taking. We bunked with the Audubon Ladies. They were four really nice ladies. I had someone take a picture of the 6 of us.. We saw a lot of deer up and back!
The Retreat itself was awesome! The Speaker was Sonja Dixon… from Elk River, MN. “The Purse Driven Life” is actually a book written by Anita Renfroe. I have the book now. It makes you laugh, cry, and really think about our lives as women. Sonja first mentioned that she was given a list of all the women who were attending the retreat before hand. She prayed for each one of us individually. How great is that!
The First Session: In Bondage to what is in our Purses and in Ourselves: Sonja said her first fascination with purses was when she was little. Her grandmother had a purse that she brought every Sunday morning for church. Many of you will probably relate to this about your mother’s or grandmother’s purse: inside there was a few ½ a sticks of double mint gum, a few folded Kleenex, some loose change and a few dollar bills folded. A few whole sticks of Juicy Fruit gum. Sonja said that when she got squirrelly then her grandmother would give her one of the ½ sticks of double mint gum. If she needed a Kleenex, the Kleenex always smelled like the double mint and juicy fruit gum.
Purses: Cell phones, credit cards, money, pictures,
Looks of the purse.
Ourselves: hair, looks, weight, clothes, schooling, kids, jobs, automobiles.
We try and keep up with the Jones!
In Genesis: Satan deceived Eve. He used Half- truths, planted seeds of doubt and he NEVER TOLD Eve what the true consequences of disobeying God would be. Satan’s Masquerade: Money and credit cards- today’s society we are pressured to have lots of money & have a wallet full of credit cards to keep up with the neighbors. Media-deals with everything money, credit cards, clothes, weight, house, automobiles, jobs, schooling; Media plays a big role in how we see ourselves. Satan is the father of lies. When we listen to Satan, we can not make thoughtful decisions. How do we describe ourselves? Some ladies say: Anger, shame, and embarrassment.
Sometimes we have feelings: That I don’t believe God is enough. We need to Consider what we see, hear and feel. If it is not in the bible, its half –truths, seeds of doubt and does not tell us the consequences of our actions or words. We need to recognize our worth as God’s value. Lies lead to bondage. Proverbs 31:30, Super woman. I can do it all: work. kids, home, church, time for husband & me, and time for me. Sometimes we get so caught up in other things that are more Non- Christian like than Christian like, that volunteering or being involved with small groups or other church activities. We say: I don’t have enough time, when I really do! What has God called me to do? Availability.
If there is something we come across in our lives or in the bible. What does it say? What does it say to me? What does God want me to use it for or do with it? She recommended that we all should read a book entitled: “Mary Heart in a Martha World” Joanna Weaver. That is just a piece of what the speaker was talking about. I almost forgot to mention that Shireen and I went to a class for Worship Music through Sign Language, we learned sign language for 2 songs. We were to do the signing of the songs during the praise and worship time on Sunday morning. Morning class: volunteer signers there were 12 of us that signed. Afternoon class, volunteer signers were only three: Shireen, another lady and I were brave enough to do it. You really feel the songs deep in your heart and soul when you sign.
I really needed the retreat as it was a time for reflection and a time for asking myself how was my walk with God. I was nervous about the left arm pit lymph node biopsy surgery the following Friday. One of the ladies from the Audubon Church, Connie, had just gone through the biopsy surgery, breast surgery, chemo and radiation treatments and hair loss. She and I were one of the first ones up in the morning. I couldn’t sleep past 5:45 a.m., as my low back was so sore from the not very thick mattress and the bunk itself. Saturday morning, she asked me if there was something wrong. She said I just looked upset, worried, my eyes were welling with tears and fidgety. I told her that I was going to have biopsy surgery the following Friday. We talked for a couple hours, we cried, we hugged and we prayed together. With the unknown looming over my head, I reflected on my relationship with my kids and my husband Lee, my parents, my two brothers and my sister. Also taking a look at my walk with God. I loved walking down to the lake for some private time with God. I was having a difficult time with one of the songs “IN NEED” I’d just start weeping. When it was time for one on one prayer time with one of the Retreat committee members I went up and one of the ladies prayed with me. After the last session I went up and introduced myself to Sonja Dixon, asked her to pray for me also. I decided that weekend, that I would just take one day at a time and pray that if it is cancer that I would have the grace and dignity to fight and cope with the disease. If it’s not cancer, to have the grace and dignity to get my walk with God even closer.
By the way, my biopsy was on November 3rd, the surgeon removed a infected 50 cent piece size cyst and some suspicious tissue, from one of my left arm pit lymph nodes the following Wednesday was the day I got the report back, I DO NOT Have CANCER! Praise God for He is Good! Thank you to all of you who were praying for me.
If you get the chance to go to the Ladies Retreat at Big Sandy Camp. I recommend you go! The Speakers are wonderful, praise & worship time was great! Food is very good! The fellowship with the other ladies is the greatest! I’ll go back next year! I have to bring my Dutch Blitz card game with me. We had a blast with that